everything seem not to be right
Monday, April 25, 2005 @ 3:45 PM

gi tat freak woke me up at abt 8.15 in the early moring.. on sunday actually we r suppose to head to sentosa but last mintue i backup.. cos i'm so tired... after toking to her i went back to sleep at 11 plus tt freak wan me to wake yp to acc her out.. as she doesnt wan to enter church... we went bugis to cut hair, gi cut her fringe... after the haircut we took neoprint n walk the whole bugis over n over again... it so f*ucking boring.. we waited for yk n went back to bedok.. on the way back yk n gi was critising abt my thoughts... which i find is right, yet they say it childish... well thing abt relationship r jus rubbish now wat.. is jus an entertainment.. also not marriage..we went cue club to play billard then headed to 211 to eat our dinner... as yk tt pest is too noisy so decided to shut his mouth for 1 hours... hahax... back to rover to play daytona. then back to my hse...

today thing doesnt seem rite to me.. no matter in sch or even after sch till now.. my whole mind is fill wif lots of rubbish...i tot evrything shld be all rite by now, as the terrible feeling is healing n gone on last saturday.. but today even i'm sitting in the parade square i overheard him toking abt her, which make me feel weird n it hurt abit.. mayb i'm jus not as strong as gi.. i jus doesn't wan to face the fact tat somehow i still hav feeling for him... but at the same time i fall in love in another guy too.. mayb it jus a crush...i hate 24 tis no, it remind me abt him... techno n jay chou song remind me abt him too.. the file which i bought for him tt night he doesnt want to take n i'm using it right now. during sleepless nite i'm wondering did we realli love each other?ppl telling me we love each other deeply, we r compatiable though i dun find it true at all.. but y does he changes his heart so fast....it jus lk a sec..i jus hate myself to bring a fake mask to sch.. mux smile at all my fellow classmate n not to let them knoe tt i still love him..although he cant giv me the secure i need but i jus simply get the shiity feeling out of it..i dun wan to go think niether do i wan to remember those memories..i admit i betray him before so does he wat! aaaahhhhhhhhh ai ya.. wat the hell! mayb i jus shoudn't go think abt it.. tis incident really affect my result.. definetly it will! i wan someone to be by my side when i need him.. hu will tt be???