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Tuesday, May 31, 2005 @ 11:30 PM
FUCK sia!!! knn lo.. take $ frm my dad is wanting him to die lk tt..
my ez link card spoil need to be replace lk as if my fault lk tt...
wah kaox.. fucking hell lo...knn...jus now went bugis to buy present for ice with mary n ji seng, shiyin join us after tt.. anyway when mary was trying the bikini is lk real funny k! as one of the bikini is so small n it totally doesnt fit her at all!!!! my stomach is in great pain lo... usual procedure back to tamp.. i think tt wil be our second hm.. nv go tamp will feel so uncomfortable!
regret wat i hav really done tt day after jie wei say me! actually i dun knoe wat i'm doing.. mayb i jus so cheapo! n tis wrds really suit me.. the black dot will always stain there n nv be wash.. i always say ppl wat they hav done but i myself hav repeat their mistake! i can confirm ppl r saying thing behind my back but wateva it is , i'm jus wateva u say but the problem is i dun give a dammn cos i cant do anything to shut ur mouth!
To: Ryan
dun knoe whether will u be seeing tis but i knoe u steal away my lime light cos my mum kept praising abt u.. saying u r so well manner.. but is jus lk wwateva.. hahax.. anyway study hard n take kare... Muackx...
idiot
@ 2:14 PM
my physic lesson cancel today.. jus simply dun understand y my class so suay .. but i gt chinese lesson lo i tot all cancel.. fuck man!
miss my lesson... i'm going bugis!
i will post another one when i come hm.. i love to blog!
'JR'
i think of euu!
@ 12:14 AM
y i jus simply get to lalaland... i'm real tired, i'm sleepy!
but i cant get to bed.. nobody tok to me!
feeling so blue...
sometimes i jus wonder hu can i really tok to...
i wan to say every single thought out of my heart
but i jus cant , cos i scare of tis n tt...
i going to brk down soon.
every sleepless night drive me crazy!
i wanna cry out loud , cos I WANNA SLP!
GIVE ME A BRK!
to the one at england:
i may not be there for u but i'm here to pray everything come out fine!
i mayb not saying the thing u wan me to say now but in the future i may say if u give me a cal ...provided if there a need! i will say as many times as u lk! live well! my soul live in u..
Sucky dAy
Monday, May 30, 2005 @ 10:15 PM
when i reach sch.. my friend told me tt mr lim fucking nv come..
is lk wat the fuck.. i took a cab to sch lo.. yet go sch do nth go there eat 3 pcs of chicken , smoke n bitch ard!!!
cb sia!!! wat a sucky day.. after tt get my arse to tamp my pool..
went tp to tour ard.. hahax..no chio bu nor ydk.. sianx sia!
went back to tamp again to look for gx.. hahax
i miss my ydk - "JR"
going to sch
@ 9:32 AM
yawn* i goin off to sch.. it hard to get myself out of the bed but becos of my future i hav to... ytd i cant get into lalala land till 3 plus i guess.. memories of everybody flashes through my mind... how i wish i could turnback going back to the past without stress n worries...
* off to sch
headace!
Sunday, May 29, 2005 @ 10:07 PM
it boring k.. i hav no money.. so i din went orchard wif them instead i stay at hm till 7 plus n went dinner wif wei bin they all.. went classic play pool for awhile then back hm... there sch tmr.. haix.. boring Zzz
math enrichment wif my form teacher.. wonder wat time r we going to end tmr...
later i think they r going changi fishing again.. tis is crazy as i dun think they r able to catch any fish.. hahax
whole day no fag 4 m3!
i craving but i din feel uncomfortable..
so i'm not addict k shiying
- amanda i miss u lots man!!!!
i love euu still!
@ 2:05 PM
ytd ii went orchard with a few yan daos n chio bu to watch "madagscar"
they decided to watch at Lido so we went up to bought the ticket. i cant imagine tt the queue was so long..it 5 plus going 6 n they decide to watch 6 o'clock show... luckily we didnt miss out the front part.. the show is nice man.. thumb up*after tt went to youth park to see performances then to cine for dinner..
back to youth park again.. after tt went hm to bath then go east coast play billard..
i end my day lk tt.. boring rite?
- poison me!
my heart sank!
Friday, May 27, 2005 @ 1:26 PM
wed i went chalet again..
the same old ppl there.. tis time we drank jack daniel n absolute vodka..
then we play cards so the two of them cards r so small so i add alot alot of jack daniel n alittle of coke.. so loser drink half a cup.. the first round i was lucky but the sec round i kena lo... kaox.. is horrible man...
n the few guys there is lk so idiot dun let me go unless i drink four cup straight...
thur as usual to tamp.. went hm at abt 10
sitting in front of the com tok cock then go down find me friend play true or dare.. which is fucking lame...3 plus then reach hm ba
today in the early morning jun heng cal me to meet him.. is lk i was so tired.. sorry man... some more plus i no money le.. if i got money is still will go down lo.. but i left the pathetic 2 dollar lo..
today they wan to go changi fishing at night.. but i want to sleep really.. it so tiring lo
i give up on him!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005 @ 1:03 PM
ytd late for sch then me, gx n bh so went to watch "saw" at gx hse...
the show is fucking scary n digusting.. after tt we left gx hse i went hm n they went 37..
meet pig they all at tamp.. when we reach tamp gx n me go eat first.. hungry la.. hahax.. go up play 2 round of pool n it cos 2.50.. is lk wat the fuck lo.. ym n me play loser punch 3 round onli 2.10..
after tt no place to go le ma.. so all went hm n i went to wei bin chalet...
they r having bbq in a special way tt i nv c before lo.. hahax.. they use chopsticks instead of fork lo.. n styform cup instead of plasticcup k..
at first we wanted to drink "heniken" (but i dun think it is spell tis way, ps only knoe how to drink dunnoe how to spell la..) open until very jialet lo... at last use the table open spill until the whole floor... after tt we drink chivas with coke n green tea.. not bad la.. hahax...they play dice dun knoe cal wat but they say go k box got provide tis game jus tell them de shake shake shake can le... anyway i wnated to go hm le.. they all stop me say wat haven drink cannot go.. hahax.. so i stay awhile longer then i went hm le.. actually goin sch de but i very tired plus raining i decide i shall stay at hm n slp...
-after so many thing hav happen i decide to give up.. i dun hav the will to fight on anymore.. i'm tired cos u din give me the faith to fight on..
simply i jus aint brave enough to face thing happening in front of me..jus a normal blood test i cant even overcome! i hope everything is jus a dream, i hope i wun be back to reality...i can feel how i'm feeling for the past 1 month... it terrible so i rather hope its a dream then anything else... ppl gave me false hope although i hav a definate answer in my mind.. i deceive myself once n once again.. i'm holding my tear in my eyes day by day... anyway wat more shld i ask, wat i wanted have been fulfill tt day has come true.. although i loathe in the past by leaving me alone but now i found out everything is wonderful... esp family n friends, i hav no regrets!
if u're mine, thing r different
i'm back to reality
Monday, May 23, 2005 @ 1:56 PM
let me start on the day before ba..tt is 22 of may i went out with him for dinner.. it really romantic... i swear... u gave me the moment tt i nv had before but some how i find we dun suit each other... i'm not trying to fool u... i told u before we r together, my friend r always at the first.. wat u said is rite then u rather stay as friend rite... i promise when u ever need me i'll be there k... i hope u can understand.. lastly i did love ya i didnt play wif ur feeling...
after tt amanda come find me, she wanted to buy a mickey mouse shoes which is rather cheap.. hahax... two mickey mouse shirt amanda??? rmb? our secert yea!! finally get my indo fag but instead of lasting four days i finish it in 2 days lo... actually decide to went hm early then come out.. after tt in the bus i decide nt to go le.. but at last i mux go cos yimin phone with me.. lk wth.. so i went there at last went yimin hse slp... the next evening we went tamp then go pl hse... midnight we went hm n they r waiting for yimin to wake up to go orchard...
i'm having fever
Saturday, May 21, 2005 @ 1:09 AM
today i went bugis n i bought alot of thing for myself..
went lunch wif him! there reason behind everything, i let u treat becos ...... pls dun brk the promise! saw Wendy at bugis cos she go facial then i go shopping with her... so he went to find his friend...
she n me misses the comfortness.. so we went head massage meaning washing hair... the fucking hairdresser attitude sux lo.. she heng ar i gd mood.. or else i sure complain her de... blow my hair till lk dunnoe wat// so angry!!!! humpf n i not going back to the salon anymore...
tampines again!! yimin n me phsyco wendy to buy fag for us.. at last she did.. i was jealous of bh lo.. idiot wendy treat him better then me... lk wat the hell... if u nv gif him i got extra one more to smoke lo... still say i cheater bug.. i got gif him at last k...
actually i was going to sneak out to meet ym they all but at last they cal me dun go.. they scare i go le then they wanna go hm.. so i went east coast wif my neighbour to eat...but halfway on the car they say i gt fever then they drive me hm.. wth!!! i'm hungry lo.. my headace is killing me!!!
who is goin to take care of me?? my mum is overseas... i'm hungry!!!
i hope i'm able to tuck in the bed n get into lalalala land!!!
- i need ur hug to get to bed!!! realli i do!
i'm getting frustrated
Friday, May 20, 2005 @ 12:07 AM
wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf.. thing r not going my way.......
anyone out there teach me wat to do. patch or not??
i'm feeling fucking gulity now..
i dunnoe whether do i really love him...
all i can do is jus tell myself i love him n i am...
i putting 100% effort in him but he doesnt believe ! is lk gosh did i do anything tt betray his trust!! i'm thinking wat evrybody hav told me jus now.. i not feeling well. my heart simply jus dun feel well! i realise fate bring us together but once n once again i rejected it... i regret
i wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
Fate can only take u so far
once u're there
it up to u to make it happen!
The person i love still remains and his existence and our wonderful memories lives in me.
PosSible t0 be bAcK aGa|n!
Thursday, May 19, 2005 @ 10:47 PM
tampines again!
today we watch "The jacket" it is so boring lo...waste of my money lo...
i hav been sneaking out of my hse two times.. it was so scary..
today planning to do tis again.. which i dun feel lk at all.. cos i'm tired today.. i feel lk slping!!! amanda n me will toking abt relationship n suddenly someone cal me.. she say is so evil... n suddenly felt creepy lo..
everybody saw him.. except me!!! no affinity sia!
i really cherish every sec we spent together..
-once u love someone the person is forever apart of u
i'm jealous of every girl tt has ever hug you becos jus for tt one moment
she held my entire world
my mind fill with his memories
Tuesday, May 17, 2005 @ 6:30 PM
i'll rmb euu no matter wat
i walkk down the street
there a deep hole in the side walk
i fall inisde; lose n helpless
it take forever to find a way out!
euu can choose not to love me but u cant stop me frm loving u!!!
i still >3 u
is it enough to love?
is it enough to breather?
somebody rip my heart out
n leave me here to bleed
is it enough to die!!!!!!!!!!
i hav a new bf
@ 10:27 AM
i hav a new bf currently..
my mum love him... is lk wateva!
my bf is so strict! i mux be back by 10 n not 12 anymore...
nvm, i shall try! i will try to quit smoking n evrything for him
rite baby! i will hold u tite lk wat u did!
today CME to me diffcult.. finish breakfast wif my big baby n we both went hm..
it totally incredible to c u today!
i'm so tired, i goin to bath n tuck in bed soon...
ciao~
i'm still waiting in the dark
waiting for u to guide me through!
i need u, really!
i'm hungry
Monday, May 16, 2005 @ 12:25 PM
i drop frm the sky to the ground
till now i still trying
i'm on the way back to the sky
simply everything jus happen
in one glance
n ended in no time
i hav no time to get perpared
kiss me
love me lk ever b4
dote me
i need to get prepared for the worst!
everytime we touch!
Sunday, May 15, 2005 @ 3:07 PM
play pool at k-pool again.
until at night angela, choon hwee n mary come find us..
then i went hm first with angela n choon hwee then the other went aiport play catching.. lame but say really it was quite fun la horx... haha.. then i sneak out go zhen wei hse.. it was rather boring watch vcd then blast techno listen n dance... abt 6 lk tt then i went hm to sleep.. but i wake up at 1 plus lo.. so early!! later going for mother day dinner which was already over le lo... but they say today lesser ppl..shit lo i'm hungry now... my mum cook porridge.. i hate porridge lo!!!wana action to amanda ytd eat ice cream then now she say her hse got alot of hagen daz... wat the hell... nvm later going for nice dinner..
i go read my storybook le
i still can hear ur voice when u r next to me.
Night cycling
Friday, May 13, 2005 @ 2:29 PM
we went bugis on thurs. Finally, we r not at tampines anymore!
but i find it the same still as boring as ever. cos no programme..
we went there is becos jun heng n zhengwei wanna buy clothes...
after tt we went to eat.. the stupid ji sheng wanna take my foto... then in the end everybody is trying to take my photo... is so lame k! i'm too smart although they manage to take one of my photo, but i deleted it.. wahahax.. ytd i smoke only a few puff before u Clarence the big bully came lo.. not even a stick lo n he demanded me to be his servant.. wat the fuck rite! esp jun heng n edmund wanna to sabot me.. keep saying i smoke alot which i didnt lo..
oh ya.. amanda ur bf-jun heng is so funny.. he is so worry abt u lo.. cos after u walk away for abt a few min he came n ask me where u go.. then i anyhow tell him one direction n he really believe n ran up... it was lk so funny tt i laughed lk one mad gal lo.. but at last he knoe i bluff him la.. hahax... at last they decided to go for night cycling which was not really tt fun at all..i took bus till rover there n zheng wei fetch me to 85... saw angela, so long nv c her le lo... dun knoe which idiot cycle till the beer brk then come back change again... saw someone make me real irrtated, then after tt cycle to amanda hse then edmund hse.. pig went off first cos she nv bring key... the stopid clarence drink till drunk n tok some stoopid stoopid rubbish...saying wat clarence clarence bo balance! which was so funny lo... after tt cycle ji sheng hm then me n clarence went hm le.. the rest of them shld be back at hm too ba..
today dun knoe where to go sia.. no money!!! sianx.. i'm so tired now lo.. cos i been awake by yimin phone call... actually i wanna play pool de but too tired so nv.. went orchard at nitex then to sparks... say really sparks then is really cal a pub a disco lo.. others totally lk fuck lo.. so small... ice came wif us too , yk n wei xiong they all also gt go...but i went hm 1 plus le.. cos i need to be back hm by two lo.. sian sia.. i wan go CLUBBING... i wan to feel high lk ever before!!!!
going tamp again play pool.. sianx.. i feel lk slping sia.. nvm.. i'm off!
i wan to face the fact now!
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 @ 6:05 PM
today geog n ss paper.
totally sux lk hell.. cos i nv really write alot.. okok only lo..
but i knoe better than anyone else as i din did well, i was sleeping.
i'm tired lo..
slacking at 37 again~! after tt go hm...
slp till now then wake up..! studying for chemistry soon le!
i saw it wif my own eyes. its unbelievable!
my heart jus sank, tears fill my eyes.
i jus need someone to be beside of me!
anyway i'm alrite. i can manage n continue!
i jus hope i can hav a last chance.
-i hav to decieve myself to make myself live.
i miss everything!
House of waX
Monday, May 09, 2005 @ 10:41 PM
today after math paper sit at 37 slack then went yimin ah ma hse wait for her to bath...
after tt went tamp.. watch
[H]ouse of WAX!!! nc-16 the disgusting n the most horrrible show i hav ever watch
is totally horrible n i was so petrify it totally freak me offf...
the show is so gross lo.. i think they should change to m-18
my mind is full of those image...
today got
yimin
pig
amanda
jun heng
zheng wei
edmung
nichloas n me watching tt fucking show!
after tt ice,clar n mary join us.... go s-11 sit sit awhile then went hm..
take a stoopid cab which the uncle is so fierce.. cos ng yi la.. close the door so hard!
the uncle down there kan sia.. still drive so fast..
i havin ss n geog.. i wonder wat rubbish i will write tis time..
hope my result is not tt worst!
-i want u to get out of my sight n stop hanging ard my hse estate
i still love him
Sunday, May 08, 2005 @ 10:28 PM
i went gx hse downstairs study..
sianx.. only gt gx, clarence n me only lo..
now there study, slack, eat n play..
the most funniest thing is i burn clarence hair!
wahahax.. somemore still gt sound ar, the smell is lk shit lo.
anyway they fill me wif laughter.
=u filled up my mind once again!
''_fark
@ 3:42 PM
lord of the dance this show is fabulous.
i jus simply love tis show to the core.
i wanna watch again!
shit lo... ytd been lock up outside.. cannot go hm.. wat the hell..
then go back tamp go s-11 eat..
so suay lo.. kena chase by cat..
idiiot... running wif my heels!
after tt went ah meng hse outside sit down n chat.
they jus simply force me to say out my ex name lo..
still threaten me lo.. we went near pig hse there makan then we went hm...
-thanks for ur rose, ur dinner at tt romantic resturant.
i will always rmb. it really an enjoyable day.
.-.me & u.-.
Friday, May 06, 2005 @ 3:47 PM
i'm at esther hse now..
later going out shopping.. yea..
i WAN TO relax my hair... arghh!!!
Lord of the dannce coming up tmr...
today sianx lo.. everybody working.. left
yimin
guo xiong
gilselle
amnda
shi ying
clarence
angela
choon hwee
edmund
the stupid pei liang go watch modern dance nv cal me!!! i wan to watch!!!!! wtf lo..
my heart jus simply melt!
first time ever melt becos of sweet tok!
where has my rules for guys! gone?
do i really love him?
i dun even feel lk having bf lo...
wth.. i think i jus forget him ba..
anyway i'm heartless.. it can be easily forgotten within a week rite..
anyway jus lk wat yvonne say take time choose properly!
i will ok.. mayb i'm jus used to the old one! hahax..
I treasure my life
Thursday, May 05, 2005 @ 5:28 PM
ytd we went orchard...
which is really CRAZY, cos tmr i got english exam, i shld be resting at hm but i didnt..
yimin
guo xiong
peiliang
clarence
shi ying
jun heng
amanda
edmund
zheng wei
choo hwee
ice
nichloas
ji sheng join us after tt, last of all tt me!
anyway ytd it his birthday.. Happy birthday !
jh and nda is jus a funny couple... entertainment in my life yea, right amanda?
after tt they went back bedok to celebrate ji sheng birthdat cos mary hav already bought a cake for him! heard ttjun heng accidentally threw the cake n hit amanda i think this is the most humourous scene ba..ji sheng n guo xiong also kena.. AmanDa i wan to c the PHOTO!!!
today english paper jus sux lo.. the question is so indirect! i curse the techer who set this paper.. when i was doin my compo until i fall asleep.. hahax.. cos ytd chat wif ppl in msn hahax..
becos i demand thing to go my ways. the story abt us is funny....
Now slacking at hm doin nth. going to study my chinese soon..
ciao~
I love the SUN!!!
Monday, May 02, 2005 @ 9:44 PM
Sun brighten up my life...
today trip include
angela
amanda
clarence
choon hwee
chan
edmund
ice
jun heng
peiliang
shiyin
yimin
did i miss anyone out? yesh.. tt me!
actually i did intend to go into the water. but at last i dun feel lk. esp yimin tt idiot.. die also wan me go down.. pl tt idiot throw me down lo.. the sea water sux lo..today its hot, but i'm not burn!
cos i put alot alot alot of sun block lotion.. jun heng, pei liang, edmund, chan, clarence and me swam over to the other island. we buried edmund, he breath so hard lo.. his breast brk wif line
we took ppl plam mall.. hahax..
we went hm after tt n we met boon chao they all.
eat at mac.. the clumsy edmund spill the drink all over.
home sweet home
-u light up my life
tmr trip [sentosa]
@ 1:51 AM
ohh.. tmr trip sentosa.. yeaaaaa
finally we can go together le.. cos evrytime gt ppl backup sianx...
last few day spenting wif those crappy friends was fun.. cos the ji shen love to do stun.. lk climbing up the bus shelter to take photo.. i went up too...
i fun n scary.. ytd we went slaughtering hse.. was dark n scary n smelly k...
alot of insects, which irritate me.. but i need to go hm early cos i cannot go hm too late.. my mum is worried lo.. today we r hanging ard at tamp again. it always our meeting place, boring!
but ice came to find us.. she so chio.. hahax..
but i going hm early.. saw amanda n jun heng so en ai.. hahax.. i so envious sia.. i can c the shadow of me n him in the past.. nvm is over anyway..
i shall get a bf soon.. hahax.. i'm jus kidding..
anyway single life is bettta then anything..
-coming in two days time..
blood test sux!!
-my heart wan u back.. but i rejected it.. cos my perfect guy is on the way!