i give up on him!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005 @ 1:03 PM

ytd late for sch then me, gx n bh so went to watch "saw" at gx hse...
the show is fucking scary n digusting.. after tt we left gx hse i went hm n they went 37..
meet pig they all at tamp.. when we reach tamp gx n me go eat first.. hungry la.. hahax.. go up play 2 round of pool n it cos 2.50.. is lk wat the fuck lo.. ym n me play loser punch 3 round onli 2.10..
after tt no place to go le ma.. so all went hm n i went to wei bin chalet...
they r having bbq in a special way tt i nv c before lo.. hahax.. they use chopsticks instead of fork lo.. n styform cup instead of plasticcup k..
at first we wanted to drink "heniken" (but i dun think it is spell tis way, ps only knoe how to drink dunnoe how to spell la..) open until very jialet lo... at last use the table open spill until the whole floor... after tt we drink chivas with coke n green tea.. not bad la.. hahax...they play dice dun knoe cal wat but they say go k box got provide tis game jus tell them de shake shake shake can le... anyway i wnated to go hm le.. they all stop me say wat haven drink cannot go.. hahax.. so i stay awhile longer then i went hm le.. actually goin sch de but i very tired plus raining i decide i shall stay at hm n slp...

-after so many thing hav happen i decide to give up.. i dun hav the will to fight on anymore.. i'm tired cos u din give me the faith to fight on..
simply i jus aint brave enough to face thing happening in front of me..jus a normal blood test i cant even overcome! i hope everything is jus a dream, i hope i wun be back to reality...i can feel how i'm feeling for the past 1 month... it terrible so i rather hope its a dream then anything else... ppl gave me false hope although i hav a definate answer in my mind.. i deceive myself once n once again.. i'm holding my tear in my eyes day by day... anyway wat more shld i ask, wat i wanted have been fulfill tt day has come true.. although i loathe in the past by leaving me alone but now i found out everything is wonderful... esp family n friends, i hav no regrets!


if u're mine, thing r different